Tuesday, December 5, 2023

Christmas Musings #12 The Light

 78 because of the tender mercy of our God, whereby the sunrise shall visit us from on high 79 to give light to those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the way of peace.” Luke 1:78-79

               When I was a young soldier, I participated in a field training exercise, FTX, in which we trained and honed our basic soldier skills. I was assigned the “HOG,” an M-60 the machine gun, a heavy beast of a weapon, but one that I was proud to hump…for a while. One of the tasks we trained that exercise was movement to contact. So, I found myself trudging across the prairie in the deep dark night of a Fort Riley, Kansas summer. As things would have it, the column became misoriented in the dark and wandered into a deep ravine. It was so dark that I did not notice when the soldiers in front of me tumbled down the steep embankment. The first indication of trouble that I had was when I stepped into nothing and found myself falling through the air. Fortunately, the fall was not too great and only two or three men behind me took the same plunge. Eventually we untangled ourselves and clambered back to the top to continue our operation. I’ve never forgotten the feeling of disorientation as I spun through the air, heading toward the pile of soldiers below. Being lost and misoriented is disastrous.

               Advent, the season of lights, reminds me that without Emanuel we wander around lost in the darkness, fumbling to avoid disaster. I think of my own life and the period of extreme darkness that enveloped me, making good decisions near impossible. I stumbled from one chaotic poor decision to another; eventually I found myself face-down on the pavement. I had to confront the failure of my own decision-making process. As humans, especially male humans, we like to think we’re the masters of our own fate; however, a quick glance through news headlines shows a brutally failed decision-making process. Much like my younger self, we simply stumble from chaos to chaos. As a history major in university, I learned that there has been no “golden age,” an age in which we lived in peace and contentment. We left that behind in the garden. Ever since the strong have preyed on the weak and the weak have suffered from their own poor choices. But Jesus came to provide light.

               When I tumbled into the ravine on the Kansas prairie, the Army had not adopted wide-spread night vision goggles. Only a few units had them. Mine did not. Later as an officer, I enjoyed easy access to NVGs. Jesus came to shine His light into our world. His light helps us walk in wiser ways. Despite what some naysayers claim, much of the advancement in human relations arises out of Christians who take Jesus’ words seriously. Jesus’ light helps us to love our neighbor as ourselves. His light directs our feet into more appropriate paths. And on a personal level, His light illuminates our own faulty decision-making processes, guiding us into a better life.

               Lying on the pavement in the dark in Abilene, a light shone into my inner darkness. I knew with surety that unless something changed, I would end up either dead or in prison. It would be nice to say that from that moment on I walked circumspectly; but, that would be a lie. However, my path did alter that night. The Advent light directed my feet into new ways. Though the journey was long, the tenor of my life changed. Christmas, Emanuel, Jesus shone His light into my world, and I could see to make better decisions.

 

 

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